The language suggests that he knew this was wrong. He didn't really want to be drawn in this way.
You are being manipulated if you are away from God, manipulated by the devil, manipulated by the world. It may be that you were the most rebellious person imaginable through your youth and nobody could tell you what to do. And you think you do exactly what you want to do, but you are being manipulated and, like that ox, all of a sudden you will rush right into the very place where they want you. That is the picture of Solomon.